...work. Definitely back to work. I'm glad to be back as an English tutor; I keep on teaching the same kids. The girl does everything pretty well, but the boy disappoints me now and then. One lesson he remembers everything, and the other everything is completely forgotten. Maybe I'm not the best teacher, but I do my best, and we repeat the same shit every fucking lesson - boy, have a heart, won't you? Anyhow I raised my price. Still money I get isn't so big, but they play important role in my budget. I save much more with my little wages.
...books. I've finished "One Day" by David Nicholls. Even though it was a task for my educational practice, I really enjoyed reading. It's like the first book in English I've enjoyed so much since "Harry Potter". Oh, should get back to that book series, I haven't finished that. As well as I haven't finished "Lolita" by Nabokov in English and "Middlesex" by Jeffrey Eugenides and "Anna Karenina" by Tolstoy in Russian though. It's so not me! I can't recall myself reading a book and leave it half-finished. Ah, no, I remember that I started "The Map Of Time" by Félix J. Palma, found it rubbish, and then returned to it in a year or something and continued reading that with pleasure. Though I'm still not sure about the ending of the book, it's kinda complicated and mind-cracking. But thanks to "The Map Of Time", subsequently I read "The Time Machine" by H.G. Wells, that was a worth reading. Moreover, coming back to "One Day", this novel was one of the fastest for me to read, if I can say so grammatically. Maybe, the fact that the screen adaptation is one of my favorite movies influenced on it, but nevertheless. You see, if I have some pressure from outside world like a task or something, I can do things really fast. And I'm not gonna stop. I'd better be back to "Anna Karenina" because there're really wise things there. And I think I should read more Russian classics because my Russian speech seem to degrade step by step, and that's absolutely not good.
...routine? Maybe. Our classes started again, I'm back at work, days go by really fast, I'm sure to have some random stuff with my student organization soon. It all seems to become a chore in no time. I'd better find new interesting people, just one or two who're gonna be interested in me too, or explore places in Vladivostok I've never been to before with the people I already know. I don't wanna have another 'seasonal depression', they are - you won't believe - depressing. I should be more positive and creative this year just for myself. Because I'm worth it.
...black? No, my favorite colors are white and red, thanks.
The song of the day? Let it be two songs of the day. The first one is going to be "Hearts A Mess" by Gotye. It reminds me of someone I'd like to be back to now, but I should let it go, shouldn't I?
Pick apart
The pieces of your heart
And let me peer inside
Let me in
Where only your thoughts have been
Let me occupy your mind
As you do mine
Your heart's a mess
You won't admit to it
It makes no sense
But I'm desperate to connect
You can't live like this
You have lost
(Too much love)
To fear, doubt and distrust
(It's not enough)
You just threw away the key
To your heart
You don't get burned
('Cause nothing gets through)
It makes it easier
(Easier on you)
But that much more difficult for me
To make you see…
Love ain't fair
So there you are
My love
Your heart's a mess
You won't admit to it
It makes no sense
But I'm desperate to connect
And you, you can't live like this
Your heart's a mess
You won't admit to it
It makes no sense
But I'm desperate to connect
And you can't live like this
Love ain't safe
You won't get hurt if you stay chaste
So you can wait
But I don't wanna waste my love
The second song is the latest single by Lana Del Rey called "Music To Watch Boys To". I said I anticipate her upcoming album. So let's enjoy the song.
(I like you a lot)
Putting on my music while I’m watching the boys
(So I do what you want)
Singing soft grunge just to soak up the noise
(Blue Ribbons on ice)
Playing their guitars, only one of my toys
(Cause I like you a lot)
No holds barred, I’ve been sent to destroy, yeah
Pink flamingos always fascinated me
I know what only the girls know
Know what lies akin to me
I, I see you're going
So I play my music, watch you leave
(I like you a lot)
Putting on my music while I’m watching the boys
(So I do what you want)
Singing soft grunge just to soak up the noise
(Blue Ribbons on ice)
Playing their guitars, only one of my toys
(Cause I like you a lot)
No holds barred, I’ve been sent to destroy, yeah
Velveteen and living single
It never felt that right to me
I know what only the girls know
Lies can buy eternity
I, I see you leaving
So I push record and watch you leave
(I like you a lot)
Putting on my music while I’m watching the boys
(So I do what you want)
Singing soft grunge just to soak up the noise
(Blue Ribbons on ice)
Playing their guitars, only one of my toys
(Cause I like you a lot)
No holds barred, I’ve been sent to destroy, yeah
Live to love you
And I love to love you
And I live to love you, boy
Live to love you
And I love to love you
And I live to love you, boy
Nothing gold can stay
Like love or lemonade
Or sun or summer days
It's all a game to me anyway
(I like you a lot)
Putting on my music while I’m watching the boys
(So I do what you want)
Singing soft grunge just to soak up the noise
(Blue Ribbons on ice)
Playing their guitars, only one of my toys
(Cause I like you a lot)
No holds barred, I’ve been sent to destroy, yeah
Putting on my music while I’m watching the boys
Putting on my music while I’m watching the boys
Be brave to be back
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