Il Senso Essiste

I've been thinking what I wrote you almost every day here? What silly words did I put here? I grow thinking that it's kinda stupid describing the weather or that I've done nothing during the day, but anyhow I keep on doing that and it calms me down with the thought that I do write s-o-m-e-t-h-i-n-g. Well, it did, 'cause now you must have noticed that my posts are published really rarely, when I have no one to speak out to or I've saved enough news to tell. Writing has become not a pure aim, but a way of sharing my inner world with the outer one.

Sometimes I receive the inspiration and write drafts for stories. They're not completed for sure and are pretty dumb, but they are something, it's a start. I'm still waiting for a moment of the true inspiration to write something fully. From time to time I get ideas, but then my idleness works or my self-confidence doesn't work right and break the Internet any plans.

My education for this academic year is almost over, it's so close to the end. The only thing I have to do is to retell some books to my teacher of foreign literature. Even though I failed my final test, she allowed me just to tell the texts not to take the exam. I'll have to answer her questions about "Romeo and Juliet" (though I read it at school, I forgot many details), "Hamlet", "King Lear" and "Othello" by Shakespeare, "Decameron" by Boccaccio, "Don Quixote" by Miguel de Cervantes and "The Dog in the Manger" by Lope de Vega. And I'm quite ready for all of them. I pray for it. I've been lazy for the whole semester and hardly read anything, so now I deserve to suffer and read all this things. Actually I've watched some of the plays to make my life easier. But I really enjoyed reading "The Dog in the Manger" and ended up laughing at "Romeo and Juliet" - how stupidly things turned out to be! Still I'm not a fan of Shakespeare, no. But read some literature, it makes you smarter, guys!

The song of the day will be a cool Italian song "L'Amore Essiste" by Francesca Michielin. It says that love doesn't have sense, it has neither name, nor eyes, but nevertheless it exists, and you can run into it all of the sudden, when you even don't think of it. 

Be brave to believe in love

The 5th Day Of Nonsense

Hey you, how's your summer going? What? It's only the 5th of it? So you just can't enjoy it! Neither can I because I still have my studies and some other headaches to deal with. Actually, my life's pretty fine now if I don't mess it up and manage my time right.
I've just watched one Soviet screening of "Hamlet", 1964. Surprisingly it ended up satisfying for me, though I had considered "Hamlet" to be a pretty boring thing. I tried to read it in the 9th grade at school, but I almost fell asleep. Maybe, I've simply grown up? The fact that the movie was black and white added some special atmosphere to it.

Guess who

My mom went to her travel yesterday. She's about to visit our relatives in the Russian North and attend a conference in Saint Petersburg. But the most exciting news from her for me is that my mother and her friends will visit Armenia and Georgia in October! Unfortunately, I won't join them, but I'll certainly receive a birthday text from Yerevan or Tbilisi. I'd like to visit Armenia one day too. 

Tomorrow I'll go to the concert of Cherry Lady's university choir. I've seen their performance only once when they sand one single song during a big concert, and now I'll chance to hear many songs of their repertoire. 

Plainly nowadays I feel a bit bored, because I don't work anymore and my student organisation doesn't put up any meetings. So I have to amuse somehow myself - going to the hospital, for example. 

And the song of the day will be a pretty sexy song with a totally unsexy tittle "Gorilla" by Bruno Mars. Get it.

Ooh I got a body full of liquor

With a cocaine kicker

And I'm feeling like I'm thirty feet tall

So lay it down, lay it down

You got your legs up in the sky

With the devil in your eyes

Let me hear you say you want it all

Say it now, say it now

Look what you're doing, look what you've done

But in this jungle you can't run

'Cause what I got for you

I promise it's a killer,

You'll be banging on my chest

Bang bang, gorilla

Ooh, yeah

You and me baby making love like gorillas

Ooh, yeah

You and me baby making love like gorillas

Yeah, I got a fistful of your hair

But you don't look like you're scared

You just smile and tell me, "Daddy, it's yours."

'Cause you know how I like it,

You's a dirty little lover

If the neighbors call the cops,

Call the sheriff, call the SWAT ‒ we don't stop,

We keep rocking while they're knocking on our door

And you're screaming, "Give it to me baby,

[Clean version:] Give it like you wanna!"

[Explicit version:] Give it to me motherfucker!"

Oh, look what you're doing, look what you've done

But in this jungle you can't run

'Cause what I got for you

I promise it's a killer,

You'll be banging on my chest

Bang bang, gorilla

Ooh, yeah

You and me baby making love like gorillas

Ooh, yeah

You and me baby making love like gorillas

I bet you never ever felt so good, so good

I got your body trembling like it should, it should

You'll never be the same baby once I'm done with you

You [x3]

Oh, you with me baby making love like gorillas

Ooh, yeah

You and me baby we'll be fuckin' like gorillas

Ooh, yeah (Yeah, yeah, baby, baby, oh yeah, yeah)

You and me baby making love like gorillas

Summertime Sadness IV

Whether you're a school boy/girl with your holiday or a student like me with the exams ahead, no one can deny the excitement about summer! Yey! What do you expect of your summer? I expect a wild time!
Right time I really worry about my exams, because I know I'll get excellent marks for the most of them automatically, but some still upset me. For example, the history of foreign literature. I know that I totally fucked up the last test, and I don't know what our teacher will tell me. I've attended all her classes and worked pretty good, so I may just rewrite the test (if everything goes well) OR go straight to hell to the exam. If I have to take the exam, I'll have to memorize aaaaaall we've learnt since the very beginning of the semester. And I don't want it. So now I'll wait till Thursday to acknowledge my destiny.
The next thing I have to get over with is the medical examination my student organisation and I will go through to work in the summer camp. Everybody knows that going around the doctors isn't the most pleasant thing on the world. But anyhow I would have to face that medical examination sooner or later. Unfortunately it's happening in such a complicated city like Vladivostok.
But these two things are pretty blue. There are definitely more bright things to anticipate! First of all it's my first term in the summer camp as a teacher.
~~Time for an interesting story~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Back in 2011 I visited the Russian All Children Camp "Ocean" in Vladivostok for the first time. It was so awesome! "Ocean" is one of thee legend camps in Russia, and I chanced to visit it for free! The atmosphere was one of a kind, there's still nothing comparing to it. And then I promised myself that one day I would return to Vladivostok, I would work there, I wanted to work in "Ocean" as the teacher. That day I thought that maybe I would study in Vladivostok, even though in 2011 I longed for St. Petersburg. And BA DUM TSSS! Here I am studying in Vladivostok and about to work as a teacher in a summer camp. Isn't it a miracle? They say, dreams come true. So hey, life! Where's my Saint-Petersburg???
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What do I expect of my work in the summer camp? I don't know. I have an image in my head, but it would take too long to describe. On the other hand I'm a little bit afraid, of course. I always tend to anticipate too much and then I'm disappointed that I get too little. So I'd better think positively and not build on sand.
After the summer camp I'll think hard about what to do during my nearly 2 weeks in Vladivostok before leaving for a better place. I'll live with my aunt and uncle, but I won't connect much with them, because they'll have their own children visiting them. So I'll keep on exploring the city of Vladivostok and spending money.
 Then I'll have a marvellous trip. But I won't inform you much about it now (if I haven't already done it before). And the last 2 weeks of summer I'll spend in Yuzhno-Sakhalinsk, my hometown. It's kinda crazy - only two weeks! Fourteen days and nights! Only those days I'll meet my parents, Dasha, Ilya and other guys from my Sakhalin gang. I hope it'll be insane enough not to get bored even once in that fortnight.
Well, it's my rough plan for the summer 2015. And the song of the day will be "Summertime Sadness" by adorable Lana Del Rey traditionally. Because we all got it.

Be brave

P.S. I've noticed that I forgot to write the "Summertime Sadness IV" post in the end of the previous summer. Such a pity! But I won't miscount, so exactly this pot will be the fourth of "SS" series as it is.